Seeksassy
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I get SO incredibly angry when any organization like the CDC speaks from above and makes declarations they know nothing about. First, I am alive today because of Opioid pain relievers. I was a depressed, lifeless person. Spending lonely and painful days, day after day. Never having any hope. There was no light at the end of the tunnel for me. No great cure right around the corner. And doctor after doctor, afraid to deal with Chronic Pain issues because doctors fear what they can not fix. I was like that for over 3 years, following one horrible year of almost dying 3 times. First there was Cancer, 3 months later 4 Pulmonary Embolisms and Open Heart Surgery a few months later. My body was so damaged and I just never recovered. Tired at first and then came the pain. Lost the support of friends and family, they didn't understand. This is nothing new, thousands of us lose everything. But the CDC doesn't understand or care about any of that. They are worried only about taking away the very thing that has brought life back to me and so many others.
People who suffer chronic pain look at Opioids differently, they are our savior. I speak only for me and those people I know who finally just made the decision to let these medicines help us. I would never abuse my Methadone because with it I can function. With it I can shower, I can do laundry, I can keep my house clean (mostly) and I can almost work. Methadone gives me a ton of energy....a ton! I never get high, instead my fog lifts and I can read again. I have found a new form of art which gives me joy and may even be a way to make a living. NONE of this would have been possible if I hadn't finally given in and taken Methadone. Again, I would never abuse what has saved me.
The problem of people overdosing on prescription drugs isn't the fault of chronic pain sufferers. In fact, Frontline, the critically acclaimed PBS series, did a great story about how the rise of Heroin abuse in this country is a direct result of such organizations clamping down on prescription pain killers. The White House was warned that if this pressure continued that Heroin use would sky rocket. The Mexican drug cartels were already setting up supplies in middle to upper class white suburban areas to get the Heroin flowing once the tap of prescription drugs stopped. In their special Chasing Heroin, Frontline followed a small suburb of Seattle as the town fell into the clutches of Heroin. I think the CDC should watch Chasing Heroin so they can see the result of their work. I wouldn't care so much if I weren't directly in the line of fire.
Having my life back, at least 60% back, I am terrified that one day my doctor will tell me she can no longer provide Methadone to me. I've even researched methadone clinics, that's how much I refuse to go back to the person I was when I was lying in bed, in pain and depressed. I refused to lose myself again. I even cut my dose on my own because of G.I. side effects.
I will note that I suffer from Fibromyalgia, not ME. Although I feel there are more similarities than differences between us, I am unfamiliar with how much constant pain ME suffers actually deal with. I do know that it all affected me, the pain, the fog, the exhaustion, the depression all of it. And Methadone has helped me with all of it. I really wish the CDC would stick to controlling disease and leave prescribing the drugs to the doctors.
Without the transdermal fentanyl I take for CRPS, I believe I wouldn't be alive. Although I can't say it gives me any energy, I am able to walk unaided only because of this drug, and live without the acute pain of CRPS, although it does nothing for my FM pain. I don't understand why these people can't discern the difference between drug abusers and those who legitimately require opioids. We are 2 such different populations. It sounds to me as though some docs are prescribing opioids as the first line of treatment, which I don't believe can be a best practice. So providing docs with guidelines for treating pain, with opioids as the last resort, seems appropriate to me. But to deny appropriate monitored treatment to anyone, when it is readily available, and safe when used as intended, is cruel.