As I sit here, I can barely think of the words to describe my fatigue. Drained, fogged, heavy-limbed, tired-but-wired, yes, yes, yes, yes...
Usually, I'm mostly okay in the mornings, and I get worse as the day goes on, especially in the afternoon hours. But today, I'm sitting here at work, worthless, staring at my computer screen. I think it's partially due to a hangover from taking extra Elavil to sleep last night.
Sometimes I go through a period when sleep comes almost normally, but then it goes away and the insomnia returns. I used to use Trazodone, but it stopped working reliably, so I switched to Elavil. Last night, 25mg made me sleepy, but brought no sleep. After several hours of listening to my wife and dogs sleep, I took more, and I did finally sleep soundly until morning. But now I feel like I'm still asleep, the walking dead, helpless and hopeless.
Without meds, I don't sleep and I'm exhausted and frantic all at once. With meds, I sleep, but I still don't feel well. Just feeling like crud.